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ଘ π•’π•«π•šπ•£π•’π•‘π•™π•’π•π•– ([personal profile] lunchbreaks) wrote in [community profile] angryhearts2020-07-13 05:18 pm

fish gotta swim | closed



WHO: Aziraphale and Crowley closed event log

WHAT: Like y'all don't wanna touch these feelings with a ten-foot pole tbh

WHEN: During the event!

WHERE: Castle Ruins

NOTES: The grumpy one is soft for the sunshine one




He used to feel love around every corner he turned. He had much of it to spare, of course, and his whole shop was doused in it. In the middle of Soho he was surrounded by it, of all walks of life, all sorts. Couples, families, friends... people and their pets, people pressed against shop windows and walking by with snacks and balloons in the summer and wrapped gifts in the winter.

It felt so empty, recently, without being reminded every waking moment (and that was every moment) of the human capacity for the emotion.

And so, one day walking around the ruins of the castle, when he feels trickles of something familiar, he feels the relief like taking a breath after breaking water, like stepping in from the cold. "Crowley!" he calls, wondering where he'd slinked off to. He hadn't drunk a tea, which meant - maybe - maybe it was starting to come back naturally. Maybe it was growing back! There was so much more with it that he couldn't place, but that was probably just an after-effect.
inlovewithmycar: (definitely not crying)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-07-26 02:42 pm (UTC)(link)
In those moments that he fantasized about this moment (and he fantasized a lot, one of the downsides of an overactive imagination), he had wanted to be a dashing hero, running in to rescue Aziraphale, and then the angel realizing they may very well be made for each other.

He'd never thought something inside, old and forgotten and fragile, would snap like a twig and he would be clinging to Aziraphale like a lifeline as a choked on six millennia's worth of emotions. He'd grown so used to pushing everything down because he was always too much - Too curious, too fast, too evil, too good - and he'd never realized Aziraphale could possibly be hiding deeper feelings of his own.

Crowley holds Aziraphale close, murmurs something into his neck that could probably be an 'I love you too' once he's got his voice back.
inlovewithmycar: (Sympathy)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-07-26 11:44 pm (UTC)(link)
"M'okay," he tries to reassure Aziraphale, but lets himself be led to somewhere more comfortable, even if it means he must (reluctantly) untangle himself from the angel.

"I just - it's a lot. I can feel you."

He hopes this never wears off - he would gladly give up a lot if he could always feel the warm, gentle pulse of Aziraphale's love beating in his chest.
inlovewithmycar: (Demonic miracle)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-07-27 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
Too much, not enough, just right - it's everything he could have hoped for.

It hurts in that way that an old wound finally beginning to heal hurts; a dull, throbbing ache but with the promise of eventual relief.

"No, it's wonderful, angel. Just perfect."

He wraps an arm around Aziraphale's shoulder and, almost instinctively, folds his wings around the angel. This is their moment. No one else can steal it from them.
inlovewithmycar: (definitely not crying)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-07-28 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Crowley gives a choked laugh, finally able to bring himself to meet Aziraphale's eyes. Tentatively, he reaches out to stroke his cheek, offering a crooked smile of his own.

"Angel, when we get out of here, I promise, I'll take you anywhere you like. Give you the full tour of Alpha Centauri if you want."
inlovewithmycar: (Bargaining)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-07-28 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
"Aziraphale - angel - s'okay, we figured it out," Crowley tries to reassure, smoothing his hands down Aziraphale's arms.

"Heaven and Hell'll leave us alone and I'll take things slow, I promise. We'll be alright, so don't worry, yeah?"
inlovewithmycar: (Bicker with the husband)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-07-29 12:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Crowley manages one of his cocky grins, clasping Aziraphale's hand to his chest.

"Our one-millionth anniversary'll come and this won't even be a blip on our radar. We'll be alright, I promise."

To reassure him, Crowley presses a kiss to Aziraphale's forehead.

"Anyway, what d'you think I'd do that'd cause anything to happen?" innocently asks the Serpent of Eden, instigator of the fall of man, partially responsible for foiling the plans of Heaven and Hell, and designer of the M-25 orbital motorway.
inlovewithmycar: (Sympathy)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-07-30 01:17 am (UTC)(link)
"Right, baby steps," he reminds himself. "Shouldn't be putting the cart before the horse, or however the old adage goes."

Gently thumbing Aziraphale's knuckles, Crowley brings his hand to his lips.

"We'll take it slow."
inlovewithmycar: (Really Interested)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-07-31 04:04 am (UTC)(link)
"Don't fancy necking with in front of an audience," Crowley says, reluctantly furling his wings. "But maybe when we're safe and snug in our tent?"

He wants this. He wants so deeply. But he knows just holding Aziraphale's hand right now is going to leave him an emotional wreck. Limited privacy isn't really ideal.
inlovewithmycar: (finger guns)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-07-31 06:29 pm (UTC)(link)
"Nothing from her royal horribleness, no," Crowley says, getting to his feet in one smooth motion and offering a hand up to Aziraphale as if they had always so casually reached for one another.

"But I'm sure that'll change in time. If she's anything like she is in story, she'll not be able to resist a good gloat."
inlovewithmycar: (Time for sarcasm)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-08-02 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
"No, not really. Saw enough heads getting lobbed off in the 18th century," Crowley remarks idly, kicking a stray bit of rubble.

"Not sure how we'd draw her out though. Something's gotta catch her interest. Maybe a box propped up on a stick tied with string with heart-shaped cherry tarts as bait? Paint all her red roses white?"
inlovewithmycar: (Sympathy)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-08-02 03:17 am (UTC)(link)
"Haven't met him yet," Crowley sniffs, stepping over the ruins of some wall. "Heard all kinds of terrible things though. I'll steer clear if you promise you'll do the same."
inlovewithmycar: (To the world)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-08-02 01:25 pm (UTC)(link)
"Mm. It's all very Alexander Dumas," Crowley remarks offhandedly, doing the whole 'Yawn and Stretch' before wrapping an arm around Aziraphale's shoulder. He's not even attempting to be subtle. "Maybe he's the Queen's brother or something."
inlovewithmycar: (Time for sarcasm)

[personal profile] inlovewithmycar 2020-08-03 02:37 pm (UTC)(link)
"Dunno, nobility always was pretty weird."

Ah yes, that's very nice, arms around each other and Aziraphale so close Crowley can feel his warmth. Feels good. Feels right.

"All we can really do right now is speculate. Like what do we even know for certain about this Mad March and the Queen, beyond the fact they're a couple of tossers?"

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