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WHO: Aziraphale and Crowley closed event log
WHAT: Like y'all don't wanna touch these feelings with a ten-foot pole tbh
WHEN: During the event!
WHERE: Castle Ruins
NOTES: The grumpy one is soft for the sunshine one
WHAT: Like y'all don't wanna touch these feelings with a ten-foot pole tbh
WHEN: During the event!
WHERE: Castle Ruins
NOTES: The grumpy one is soft for the sunshine one
He used to feel love around every corner he turned. He had much of it to spare, of course, and his whole shop was doused in it. In the middle of Soho he was surrounded by it, of all walks of life, all sorts. Couples, families, friends... people and their pets, people pressed against shop windows and walking by with snacks and balloons in the summer and wrapped gifts in the winter.
It felt so empty, recently, without being reminded every waking moment (and that was every moment) of the human capacity for the emotion.
And so, one day walking around the ruins of the castle, when he feels trickles of something familiar, he feels the relief like taking a breath after breaking water, like stepping in from the cold. "Crowley!" he calls, wondering where he'd slinked off to. He hadn't drunk a tea, which meant - maybe - maybe it was starting to come back naturally. Maybe it was growing back! There was so much more with it that he couldn't place, but that was probably just an after-effect.
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He'd never thought something inside, old and forgotten and fragile, would snap like a twig and he would be clinging to Aziraphale like a lifeline as a choked on six millennia's worth of emotions. He'd grown so used to pushing everything down because he was always too much - Too curious, too fast, too evil, too good - and he'd never realized Aziraphale could possibly be hiding deeper feelings of his own.
Crowley holds Aziraphale close, murmurs something into his neck that could probably be an 'I love you too' once he's got his voice back.
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In fact, all this time, he'd just wanted to see inside, for Crowley to let him know what he was feeling. He supposes he hasn't been good at doing the return favor, and he shouldn't have such expectations.
"Crowley," he says, finally. "Why don't we take a seat somewhere?" His voice is soft, warm, and intimate.
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"I just - it's a lot. I can feel you."
He hopes this never wears off - he would gladly give up a lot if he could always feel the warm, gentle pulse of Aziraphale's love beating in his chest.
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He leans into the crook of Crowley's neck, nuzzling him a little bit. "Is this too much?" he asks, hope in his voice.
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It hurts in that way that an old wound finally beginning to heal hurts; a dull, throbbing ache but with the promise of eventual relief.
"No, it's wonderful, angel. Just perfect."
He wraps an arm around Aziraphale's shoulder and, almost instinctively, folds his wings around the angel. This is their moment. No one else can steal it from them.
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"Is it too late to take you up on that offer to go to Alpha Centauri?" he asks with a watery smile.
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"Angel, when we get out of here, I promise, I'll take you anywhere you like. Give you the full tour of Alpha Centauri if you want."
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He laughs even though there are tears welling up in his eyes. Maybe because of it.
"Oh Crowley, what have we done?"
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"Heaven and Hell'll leave us alone and I'll take things slow, I promise. We'll be alright, so don't worry, yeah?"
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And then they can go home, and forget about this place. Even the people they've met here, as they needed to do with every human they'd ever met.
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"Our one-millionth anniversary'll come and this won't even be a blip on our radar. We'll be alright, I promise."
To reassure him, Crowley presses a kiss to Aziraphale's forehead.
"Anyway, what d'you think I'd do that'd cause anything to happen?" innocently asks the Serpent of Eden, instigator of the fall of man, partially responsible for foiling the plans of Heaven and Hell, and designer of the M-25 orbital motorway.
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"One million years?" he asks. He'd like that. He'd like for humanity to be around so long, for them to possibly see the stars the way he and Crowley once saw them. They can proudly join them then, and won't remember this at all, just two celestial beings whose hearts sometimes bleed into each other's bodies. That's all.
"Let's just get through this one first, shall we?"
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Gently thumbing Aziraphale's knuckles, Crowley brings his hand to his lips.
"We'll take it slow."
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"Not that I'd like to... stop this, but. We only have so much sunlight. Would you like to perhaps keep looking around and then... maybe, we can continue this around the campfire?"
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He wants this. He wants so deeply. But he knows just holding Aziraphale's hand right now is going to leave him an emotional wreck. Limited privacy isn't really ideal.
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Not that he minds but he'd thought she'd tell them... something! Anything, really.
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"But I'm sure that'll change in time. If she's anything like she is in story, she'll not be able to resist a good gloat."
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"Not sure how we'd draw her out though. Something's gotta catch her interest. Maybe a box propped up on a stick tied with string with heart-shaped cherry tarts as bait? Paint all her red roses white?"
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"Whatever you do, Crowley, stay away from him."
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Ah yes, that's very nice, arms around each other and Aziraphale so close Crowley can feel his warmth. Feels good. Feels right.
"All we can really do right now is speculate. Like what do we even know for certain about this Mad March and the Queen, beyond the fact they're a couple of tossers?"
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